Deal With It

A sermon about Depression my sister told me about. I just listened to it. Excellent.

http://pinelake.org/media-resources/sermons/depression/

God Will Use This for Good

Not 'Til We Are Lost

Rock Bottom

I searched for an image for "rock bottom" and was thinking I could find something really sad and depressing. I found the above image instead. What is rock bottom for me? Evicted from where I was living and now living in my 14 year old daughter's bedroom in the basement of her dad and step mom. How bad does it need to get before I can begin happiness again. I want to give up each and every day. Why do I keep going? 

Methylation Cycle

Methylation Cycle

(BBB)

Basic Biochemistry of Body

from my doc, Dr.. Nancy Foster, PhD, APRN, Therapeutic Lifestyle Center of Utah, Salt Lake City, Utah...

The Methylation cycle is a process in which a single molecule (the methyl donor) transfers a methyl group, consisting of 3 hydrogen atoms and 1 carbon atom (CH3) to another molecule. This second molecule becomes methylated, this is an essential process that is responsible for our body's Glutathione production and a myriad of other effects. 

The methyl group is responsible for repairing the damaged cell. When our cells are damaged due to free radical damage or toxins, this methylation cycle inserts the new methyl group into the protein cell.

The transfer of information from one generation of DNA cell to the next is heavy influenced by the methylation cycle. An optimal mthylation cycle ensures protein cells and DNA cells remain healthy and function properly. 

This very same repair process detoxifies our body by neutralizing harmful homocysteine amino acids and turning them into methionine. The level of homocysteine in our body is a direct indicator of how old we are biologically speaking. Increasing the risk of heart disease, stroke, high cholesterol, dementia, liver disease, birth defects and depression. 

The Methylation Cyle's Effects

• Vital for the production of Coenzyme Q10, Energy, Creatine, Melatonin, Phosphatidylcholine and Carnitine.
• Responsible for the synthesization of proteins that make homones, neurotransmitters and numerous immune components.
• Preventing gene overexpression. (Cancers/Tumors)
• Regulating sulfur metabolism which is required to detoxify our body and cells.
• Involved in the fabrication fo phospholipids and myelin in the brain and our nervous system.
• Required for our cellular mediated immune function such as T-Cells.
• A necessary piece of the metabolism of Folic Acid. (Folate) into L-Methlfolate
• Needed to convert hazardous homocysteine into mood elevating methionine.

MTHFR Gene Mutation

So I have the MTHFR Gene Mutation. I have MTHFR C677t and A1298C

MTHFR or Methylenetetrahydrofolate Reductase is the enzyme in the methyl cycle responsible for the remethylation of homocysteine into methionine. Any genetic variations in this gene influence my susceptibility to a countless number of diseases and defects. 

Little Energy

This is how I feel every day until my Adderall kicks in. I don't like it because it means there is something wrong with my body and I want Adderall for "focus" and not for energy. I keep thinking there is something "wrong" with my body. I know I have low progesterone levels which causes low energy, yet still there seems to be something missing with my "diagnosis."